The question of “why me?”

I have heard this a lot in my life of people questioning “Why me?”

It’s difficult not to, right… like why did I get passed up for the promotion, why isn’t my family like that…

Why did my child die…

Sometimes we get stuck in this mind set and forget that there is a bigger picture. I wish I could tell you that I see it and that I have come to know my bigger picture but unfortunately I do not know yet what God has in store for my life, how it will look in 30 years, who will still be with me, who I become…

Life has a lot of lingering questions that may never be answered and we have to do our best to find with peace with that. We need to find the things that make us happy and do those things. Trust me it is easier said than done and even I haven’t found a happy medium between my career and those truly fulfilling activities, like this blog.

Lately, I have found myself wanting to be more consistent with this blog and really make it something other than a space to drop my thoughts every 6 months. I am constantly in a state of balancing the love I have for my career and making sure that fire and drive for my career does not dry up and turn me into someone that I don’t want to be. I am trying to find the reason why I was drawn to my career and why I have been all consumed by it this last year.

I know that I am where I am supposed to be and that God would not lead me astray, place me in a situation that I cannot grow from, but some days I am plagued with why

What I have figured out…beside nothing… is you deserve happiness no matter what and no one can give you that, you have to give it to yourself. Find the joy in the little things, surround yourself with people who support you, love you, and cherish you. They will fill your cup and help you along the way to finding your, “Why me?” They can also turn this phrase from a curse to a blessing if you allow it.

Until next time…

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