Here's to New Beginnings! It's been awhile since I last posted... Partly because I was having a hard time processing my first Mother's Day, my husband's first Father's Day, how I wanted to continue honoring Matthew... honestly... the excuses are endless as this point and then I longer I was gone the harder it was… Continue reading Hello September!
Letter to Matthew: Today is your due date... When I first found out I was pregnant I immediately looked up your due date March 24, 2018... You were supposed to share the month with your cousin Hunter and you were hopefully going to share the day with your cousin Jennifer! I was so happy! Filled… Continue reading I had dreamed of this day…
This might be a little of a rant, stay with me though! I AM DOING THE BEST I CAN! This is not meant to be a sad phrase, nor a pity me phrase, nor an angry phrase. It is just the truth! Each day brings new challenges, new ways of having to cope with my… Continue reading I’m doing the best I can!
It's funny, you can be going about your day, not really thinking about the tragedy the befell you, and BAM! it's like a freight train hits you head on. The mind is a funny thing, the mind can convince the body that it is pregnant (chemical pregnancy), make your body heal without medicine (placebo effect).… Continue reading Grief, a powerful thing…
Last Sunday we went to visit Matthew for the first time since he was buried on December 1, 2017. They had just placed his marker a couple days prior, so we wanted to make sure it was correct and bring some new flowers. I was so nervous to go...what if it wasn't right, what if… Continue reading Visiting Matthew for the first time…
Matthew Neal born sleeping on November 11, 2017 at 4:04am, 9 inches, 11oz. Before we get there though, let's rewind exactly 4 months. July 11, 2017... It was a Monday, and I was rushing getting ready for work. The week before I feeling "off", so I decided to take a pregnancy test. I put the… Continue reading Matthew’s Story
